Till then.

This will be my last post for 2007.

How time flies. Now, 7 more hours later I'll be leaving for NS. Although I won't be leaving for good, I'll still be leaving lots and lots of things and people behind. For instance, the new bunch of friends that I got close to within a month. My high school buddies. My study mates. My parents. My home. My room. My everything.

I have never left home for so long before. I remember staying over at a cousin's place which lasted a month and the furthest I went was UK, and thats only 2 weeks. This time, I'll be leaving for 3 months. 3 whole months for good-without luxury. 3 whole months being independent. 3 whole months to make new friends. Not that I mind but, I'm already used to having certain people within this short period of time and this sudden change isn't much needed.


I remember counting down with them. I remember how they would laugh at me because I'll be leaving. I remember the times when we said, 'Who cares about ns. There's a month left. We can have plenty of fun.' Indeed, we had lots of fun. It was so fun I would love time to stop there and then. Then it was a week left. They teased and I laughed.

Our last supper together was loud chatter and guffaws. Snapping pictures away and being nice to each and every.

Wait, since when are they nice? They were that night. They really were. No sarcasm, no awful teasing. Just plain nice. I thought I was gonna cry, but I didn't because on the day I'm leaving, they'll be sending me off. Well, only 3 of them though.

The fantastic 5 (harhar, sounds poser-ish xD) at Kayu. Supper=Kayu. Most of the times anyway.


Jia Li. My only girl companion among the lot. Which means my act cute partner too. The one that would tease me kao kao alongside them every single time.


(Bastard. He had to wear that shirt.) If I stop fighting with him one day, well, that one day the world would become upside down and have no peace at all. I'm gonna miss Borders and your colleagues for getting sick of me. XD


They are far to gay for any descriptions.

Warren has been a really nice driver. he would fetch me around without grumbling. Just the occasional 'How are you going back later ah?' in a super duper sarcastic tone. Kuok Tjun on the other hand, has been quite mean to me although he CAN be nice but I don't think he wants to. That high ego fella can hardly accept defeat with his head held high therefore the constant arguing between us. The arguments are pointless most of the times but its fun seeing him all worked up to defend himself. harhar!! I'm gonna miss you both because only you guys would do that 'brotha thing' with me. :) Much appreciated.

Here's a very cute picture of Kuok Tjun that everyone has to agree with me that he IS cute.

See, no acting cute whatsoever. I just took up my cam and he very layan smiled at me. And that picture turn out pretty good. :) You can steal it if you want! Don't worry so much about your undang test. I'm sure you'll pass it. And when I'm back for holidays, you can drive me around. xD Happy working in Dome and be nice to all your customers.

"Sunday morning time to say goodbye
But I'll be holding you soon
Though I'm leavin', girl don't start to cry
I'll be thinkin' of you .... yeah

It's a lonely ride on the midnight train
I'm countin' down the days 'til I'm home again

How can i say when my words ever dry
How can I smile with the tear in my eye
Summer's so lost with rainin' in June
That's how it feels when I'm missin' you..."

Fuck blogspot. Another half of my long post went poof, just like that!

To make things short, fantastic 5 will be sorely missed. Fen, Ames, Ngiap Li and Janice too. Not forgetting Yench. xD

Here's my new year resolution.

1# Buck up on studies after camp.
2# Spend less.
3# Start saving $$$.
4# Cut down on late night outings.
5# Be a good girl to the parents.
6# Get along with everyone and stop getting myself into any sort of dramas. (harhar, lame)
7# Grow taller. (meh, doubt it.)
8# Start exercising.
9# Stop procrastinating. (you think so? xD)
10# No more liao la. Can't think of any. Will add more if I could.

Ok, time to hit the bed. Now bye everyone!

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008! Have a blast!

Hiking.

Whee, finally we went hiking. Happy.

Our plan to reach Penang Hill by 7 ko-ed thanks to Kuok Tjun because he couldn't wake up. We were already at his place when he was about to get ready. He damn potong steam right? We were about to scold him when he gets into the car but he called me, ' eh 5 minutes ok, alarm clock punctured.'

T________T

Why is he so funny like that. I couldn't help laughing when teasing him. xD Anyway, we reached around 7.30am cause he potong steam again. He gave us the wrong direction.

#$%^&*@!&%*!

Started our journey at 7.45 ish and ended at 1.45. I know right, we took so darn long. But what can you expect from mall rats? 14km isn't that short you know. What more, we took our own sweet time dragging ourselves up the steep steep road and walking backwards when we were coming down. xD

It was fun overall albeit a bit tiring. Quite worth the walk also lar with Kuok Tjun's lame jokes and gossiping about other people. It would be fun if there were more people since Adrian decided to potong steam too, by not joining us cause he had to work. While walking down, we thought about inviting so many more people that we left out last night. harhar. Maybe next time, when I'm back from NS; with better endurance, stamina, muscles and all those shit. xD

Kuok has a nice body I must admit. No, I didn't peep. xD He was walking around topless cause according to him, it was damn hot.

T_____T

Anyway, got lucky and bump into my big sister while resting. Of all places, Penang Hill. A bit salah right. Lol.

I had 2 hours of sleep last night after all. I won't be going tuition later yayyyyyyy and there will be no more. Too bloody exhausted and now my legs are aching shit. Sigh. Some more I needa start packing my stuff. Haven't touch a single bit.

This is what happens when the girlfriend whines about being tired.
Sooooo shweet, don't you think? :)

And trust me, this is the first time I see Kuok so loving it almost seems wrong. He had always been harsh about everything to his girlfriend and all of a sudden, this. Cannot take it lar. Oh well, I guess everyone has their soft spot after all. :)


Wokay, needa go list down things to bring for NS now. Gosh, I can't believe its so soon. :(

Merry Christmas!

Christmas eve was alright I guess. It was tuition in the morning, bumming around the mall in the afternoon and a friend's barbecue party at night.

Nothing much to update. I'll be leaving in 5 more days and before I leave I'll post up pictures to make this blog not so dead.

And yay, my hiking plan is gonna work out! xD After hiking is brekky and after that is movie! I think. Whoop-dee-doo. And tuition in the evening. Grrhh.

Not sleeping tonight.


Merry Christmas all!! And Happy boxing day. ;)

7 days left.

How time flies eh? Remembering very well that I got so so upset when I had to find out about it a day before school prom and having all the people 'congratulating me' during prom.

Now? 7 more days till I leave. Kinda sad that I haven't meet up with people I'm supposed to meet. Although I am having lots of fun with the current bunch of people but you know, I'm not the type that will leave my old friends behind. :P

Moving on, I got lucky today cause I bumped into my larling while doing some Christmas shopping. Jolly happy crazy. xD It has been a while since I last saw her. I've already received 2 since yesterday! :) Still having a headache on what to get for certain people though. Meh, never mind that. And I saw someone cute today. xD

I just realised that I have tuition on christmas eve. How depressing.

Anyway, the christmas mood didn't hit me like how it normally would. I think the mood sort of died. I no longer sing christmas carols at the top of my lungs anymore. harhar! I still cannot feel it lar. Why like that?

I wanna do more shopping, but there's nothing to buy. Bored.

Accounts can be a...

Bitch.

I'm not whining or anything but why la can't my trial balance tally. Very very annoying can. I did 2 long questions and non were balanced. ARGHHHHHHHH! 1 more question to go-double entry and trial balance that means another 45 minutes to go. Means sleeping at 5am and I'm waking up at 8.30 later. Tuition is at 10.30 am. Woo-hoo. I is champion already.

Finally went for supper after 3 days of NOT GOING OUT AT ALL. Warren does come in handy as a chauffeur. (After all, his place and mine is just a stone throw away so not as paise to him as to Jia Li or Ames or Adrian. har har.) When he was down in Kl for the past 3 days, I nearly died of boredom at home. Rotted, or almost. He finally messaged me when I finished watching a movie with the parents. I was more than thrilled to receive a message from him cause I'm going out!!! Yay!!!! Out with the same bunch of people because I haven't see them all for 3 long days and I guess I missed them, a bit. xD (This is 3 days I'm talking about, I'm not gonna imagine 3 months. Of course I miss Jan and Ngiap but there's always the email. <3)

It was the usual, Warren pick me and Kuok up then off to Queens to wait for those working people then to mamak. Seeing them again means lots of arguing session. xD All ego maniacs. har har. So yeah, lotsa things to laugh about.

And I'm kinda glad that he won't be leaving for the states since his visa got rejected. :p Means he'll be in Penang when I come back from NS means lots more going out and less transportation problems. LOL. Ok, now I really take him for granted. Bad, Karyn. BAD. LOL.

Just kidding lar. :)


MNG sales was madness. The long queue to the fitting room was a tad annoying. Other than that, was fine. For the first time, most of the clothes I picked fitted me. And they are cheap. Say rm20 for tank tops and rm30 for tees? Its a bargain, no? (when it comes to SALES, everything is a bargain. lol.) Normally it would be no size, not worth the price or something like that. But this time was different laaaaaaaaaa. Man, I'm gonna go back and grab more stuff. Maybe tomorrow. :) The problem is, I'm kinda broke from all that KL splurging. Oh well.

Maybe mommy might be kind to give me a bit of allowance. Can't possibly drag her there since I just bought 5 items there today. Meh, this sucks. When you are out of cash during sales season. Buhhh.

This is LONG. I think I better get back to finishing my work and have some shut eyes before I die in class tomorrow.

Feeling princess-y.

:D :D :D :D :D :D

2 dudes drop me to tuition just now. Both of them came to fetch me back too. Definitely out of their way-one has a ManU match to catch and another is leaving to KL tomorrow morning. Yet they were so very kind, which was very unlike them. I'm so touched ok. :) Seriously, they went all the way upstairs to my sir's house to wait for me. Where got such guys now you tell me. Wait for me with an umbrella cause it was raining some more. They are rarity already but too bad lar, both taken. :p

I'm like a princess, no? :D

And I finally found Prozac Nation. Some more I buta-buta get 20% off. (thanks to ze Borders guy! xD i doubt you know who I am but thanks laaa. :)) Am I lucky or what. :p Its actually fun when you get to know people working in Borders. After all, I frequent there. Wait, that didn't sound right. I go there everyday, yeah. That's more like it.

I'm feeling damn hyper today. No tuition until Warren comes back from KL but lots of homework though. Oh well, can't complain since I wanted it (tuition) myself.

Nicole Scherzinger ft Will.I.Am's Baby Love is so so nice. Heard it on Fly fm just now and I got hooked onto it.

Tuesday with Adelyn. (hopefully)
Thursday with Ames.


I wonder if I am dota-ing tomorrow. (no, I'm not addicted to it ok!!) I just learned and its nice when people give face and don't pawned you. xD and CS too. Oh gosh, don't go KL la Warren!!!!Peter Ong and Warren can be nice to me during dota but the other.... Hmm, don't think so.

Oh well, see how things go tomorrow. After all, Peter Ong has his off day tomorrow! xD When his girlfriend is busy working. Sigh. Probably visiting again I'd say.

Time to sleep. I'll do the tag soon, Mich darling. Couldn't find a proper B&W picture of myself. :p


**edited**

The guys went dota without me la. Babiness. More like they went with a bunch of jakuunish people. xD

I rotted at home. I miss Warren, my driver already. har har.

**edited**

A day off from Queens.

Have been going to Queens from Monday to Friday and today, Saturday, I'm stuck at home completing my homework. I have tuition tomorrow night lar. Parents are out at Queens, I think. I don't know, didn't bother to call. I woke up seeing cash on the table and nobody else. So yeah. If they are not at Queens, they are probably out somewhere.

And later, I don't feel like going for the campfire at Frees. Lazy. What more with my unfinished work. Cannot la, if I go I'll feel damn guilty.

So yeah, I'm half rotting now. 2 more questions which is about an hour and a half more till I can rot entirely.

Next week's routine would be different. Warren will be down at KL for some interview thingy majig, Peter (har har!) starts working 10 hours (started today actually) and the other 2's job remains the same. Ames will be at camp for 3 days some more.

Meh, I'm gonna rot like crazy.

Ho hum. I wonder when will our hiking plan work out. Seems impossible with everyone buzzing like a busy bee. Sigh.

I'll be leaving in exactly 2 weeks time. Meh, I'm gonna miss supper, and all of them. :) Although they tease me a bit too much sometimes.

Shit, I AM actually leaving. :(

Shit, emo.

Shit, procrastinating.

Shit. Shit. Shit. Get back to work, Ryn!

Lifeless.

**edited**

At Infinity now after dim sum. Champion la no life until like that. Ames faster come back and bring me out. I'm about to die hanging out with the same people here. And the guys are super CHILDISH. *coughs*

I'm bored. Jia Li is bored too. Infinity is so cold.

I uh, watching movie later. Yay!!!

Dim sum was fun. Like old people like that.

**edited**


No, really. Or almost lar. Mixing with the same people, at the same place-Queens.

Went out from 9.30am last night, got back around 1am. Now, going out soon for yum cha. :D

Dim sum, yummers! :D It has been a long long time since I had dim sum with the family, what more this is the first time with friends. Haha, I know, like jakuun. :D


Gotta run. Driver's downstairs. :p

Tuition...

After SPM. :D

Karyn is champion la. Tuition after SPM. Champion. :D Waiting for Warren to pick me up in about half and hours time. And I'm kinda happy I'm actually attending tuition... after SPM.

Tee hee.

Look, I won't have a chance anymore next time and this is one way of killing time. 2 and a half hours for I don't know how much. :D

Last night, I feel a surge of nostalgia and agreed on having tuition without a second thought. Not that I mind waking up at such ungodly (read : 8.00 am) hours, but the whole process of going to tuition. Not getting enough sleep, feeling lazy etc. Yeah, that. Wait, that's supposed to be the fun of it! LOL.

Anyway, 6 hours of sleep is sufficient for 2 and a half hours of tuition, right? :p Hopefully tuition won't drain the wee bit of energy left in me lar.

On a different note, i had supper nearly every night after I'm back from KL. Which is not a good sign. LOL. I had lok-lok last night. I can't quite remember the last time I had it cause mommy doesn't let. Dirty wor. Oh well, couldn't be bothered when you have kick ass company. :) (have to puji, if not no need to go home lar!)

Wokay, 15 more minutes left. Gotta go get ready. See yas!



Champion, I went Borders 4 times yesterday and I practically know most of the workers there.

T____________T

This is a sign of no life-ness. Cham.

I cooked.

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

After such a long time. The last time was uh, was, I can't even remember. My skill haven't deteriorate though. Considering the insufficient ingredients, my food was ok-lah.

Passable. Edible. :D

Wheee. Cooking is fun. Now I can start cooking all over again.


Now do not underestimate the small one here. :D

Limits.

What do I know of it? Why did I let it happen. Limits, so much so for saying.

Ugh. I could do with a tight slap right now.

Fuck. This is worse than I thought. If only there is a backspace button in life...


**edited**

If you don't have any idea what I'm talking about, please don't bother asking. After all, this is MY blog and I'm allowed to write anything I want.

So yeah.

I can't sleep. I stoned watching series. I feel bad. I need a booze. I need to go out tomorrow. Get more books. Get more caffeine. Things will be better... somehow.

Dum de dum.

I nearly got banged by a car just now after mamak. Har har. No joke. Champion okay. I was looking at my phone instead of the road. Seriously, if I wasn't pulled back.... I dare not imagine. Ho hum.

Same ol' same ol'.


CANNOT SLEEP. Grrrhhhh.

Sleepless night.

Another one.

Last night I couldn't sleep. I was up till 8 am watching Romantic Princess. And I woke up at 10.30 am after that. I tried going back to sleep, which worked; because I was too lazy to get up for lunch. Hence waking up at 4.30 pm.

Seriously, my sleeping time is getting haywire.

Coffee's fault? Doubt it. I never had problems sleeping after taking coffee.

My biological clock is killing me too. I'm waking up before 11 am everyday after SPM. It would be a miracle for me to get up so early during the weekends before SPM. I always always sleep past noon.

I need to sleep. I wanna go out tomorrow. :(

Seven.

Tagged by ames and ting ting.

Seven things to be done before my death:
- Get rich.
- Get married.
- Have a collection of designer bags. (yes I'm dreaming, cannot is it!)
- Get more piercings.
- Not be so dumb.
- Be good.
- Get a tattoo. (most probably lar. hah.)

Seven things I will not do even if it kills me:
- Join fear factor kinda stuff.
- Get close with any sort of cold blooded animals.
- Search for ghost.
- Shave bald. :p
- Re-sit for SPM.
- I don't know already lar.

Seven things I do when I'm away from public:
- Sleep
- Poop
- Bathe
- Pee
- Obsess with myself
- Vain
- Dig my nose? xD

Seven favourite sentences/quotes/expressions:
- Dum de dum.
- Uh oh.
- Yep.
- Dash-underscore-dash.
- Go die.
- You stupid.
- You very tall is it now.

Seven songs:
-Bu Xiang Dong De
- Wo Bu Pei
- Ruang Rindu
- Yue Ya Wan
- Perhaps Love
- Si Ben Dao Yue Qiu
- Tu Amor


Seven things I'll make you wish you didn't do if you did:
- Have a rebound.

Seven people to tag:
- Anyone that wanna do this tag.



Holy smokes. Its 4 am and I couldn't sleep. Probably thanks to the Iced Caramel Macchiato I had after dinner just now. Great, now I sudah dijangkiti ames punya penyakit.

Roar.

I wanna sleep.

Roar.

I wanna go out tomorrow.

Wokay, back to watching Romantic Princess. :)

I CANNOT SLEEP LA WOI!!! HOW???????!!!!!!!!!

BACK!

Back at 10 last night. Supper at 11. Home at almost 1. Died after that.

KL was fun. I shopped a lot. A bit regret for not getting some things. I think I bought almost everything I wanted. :) That also means I'm broke. I came back with 15 bucks. There.

Total damage done: 12 tops, 3 shorts, 1 skirt, 1 jeans, 1 bag, 1 purse, 1 pair of shoes, 1 pair of heels, M&S shower gel, perfume, make up, under garments, kawan's presents, necklace and donuts.

Yep, thats all.


No, wait. I didn't get myself a boyfriend lar. LOL.


Ames can't stop liking cab drivers. Ee yer. And we both love that cute golden retriever puppy at Mid Valley's Pet Wonderland. So adorable. And my 1U guy that hugged a girl, Mei's very cool guy in front of Cititel and another, my Roxy super gaya-ness guy. XD

DIE.

Met up with Adelyn when I was at klcc. Nice catching up lar. Now get your butt back here love!

Wokay, gonna go sort things out. I wanna dye my hair. And sleeping after supper is gonna make me fat. :(

Ok damn random. Toodles.

Paranoid.

Oh so it has finally sink it.

Today. When I'm leaving for my jolly happy trip. Mm hmm.

That aside, happy birthday big sister Wei Fen! It has been a good 5 years that we got to know each other. How time flies eh? Remember the time we would hog on the phone for hours? The times when I was still a kid and you, all grown up giving me advise on stuff. :p I think you are one of the very few seniors that I'm close to now. If not I won't be calling you BIG SISTER right? Although you are still that small in size. tee hee. Have a great one! And take care ok? Don't party too much. I will see you soon. Love ya! :)

Leaving in 10 and a half hours.

And some people decided to make me feel so so guilty because I wanted more money from my dad. Made me realized that I'm spoilt rotten. Like really really spoilt because I get things I want by just asking. I mean, of course my friends lecture me from time to time but couldn't help it la. I do listen to them, I already cut down on impulse buys, I can't possibly cut down shopping on necessities now, can I? Some more this time, its shopping after SPM.

MUST BUY! Lol. How can I possible not? Hahahahaha.

No la, not at this time to lecture me. I'm about to spend so much on everything and anything i could and I'm told about hard earned money.

Meh. This is bad.

Oh wells.


Champion la, hog on the phone so long now only wanna pack my stuff. And ames just asked me what to bring. That one lagi champion.


This is gonna be a girly bonding, impulse shopping trip for us. We deserve it, no? (I admit I don't la cause I didn't study hard enough but its over mar, couldn't be bothered. :p)


Its December! let's all enjoy this jolly happy festive season!! :) Sad to say, I have no plans whatsoever for christmas eve.

Enchanted.

Enchanted is a MUST MUST MUST watch okay!

Minus the good looking Patrick Dempsey which is to drool over, the movie albeit very fairytale-ish which won't come true, the storyline is just perfect la!! Like how they blend cartoon and reality so well together. Even the animals are so adorable-Pip the chipmunk. :D Even guys said it was a nice movie, better than Beowulf! Hah!


Sigh, now it would be nice if such a fairytale befall on me. Which means, keep on dreaming, Ryn.

T______T

Sigh. Sweetness. Romantic Princess also so sweet.

T______T

I'm gonna die of diabetes lar. Sigh.

On the super down side, I CAN'T BELIEVE I ACTUALLY LOST IN DAYTONA. LIKE ONE FREAKING ROUND BEHIND EVERYONE.

Cheesus, so freaking paise ok! And I got shoot kao kao. :(

I mean of course I cannot beat the guys lar but 1 freaking round behind them? My maruah gone kao kao lar. Now I swear I won't touch Dayotna for the longest time. Ohmycheesuscrust lar, one freaking round behind them, really champion lar. Champion. Although the real champion was right beside me during the race. Ugh, the thought of it is so so pek chek. I can kill myself.

So I went out today after all.

By the way, happy birthday Kuok Tjun. Doubt you read my blog but happy birthday anyway. :) You seriously need to stop tembak-ing me when there's opportunity lar. You are gonna khek me till I got heart attack one day if you don't stop. XD


KL in 2 more days yo! Can't wait.

I'm bored.

I couldn't sleep anymore so I woke up.

And sekarang very very bored.

Hogged on the phone with larling for almost an hour then had lunch. While waiting for ames to pick me up, here I am lor. :)

Bored la. bored. bored. bored. bored.


It'll be nice if I can drive NOW. Hmmm.

Watched The Kingdom. Very very nice lar. At least its ending was meaningful. heh. Anyone's up for the Bee Movie? Cause I bet the guys won't want and the girls, well the girls all dunno fly where already. :(

I think I can watch Romantic princess to kill time. :)

Mehhh.

**********

On a different note, Kem Syruz doesn't sound fun anymore. Not even with people I know around. That kem is right smack in the middle of no where la!!!!! HOW AM I GONNA SURVIVE???

T_______T

Every morning, we will go jogging and we'll march and activities include dumping you in the forest and expect you to find your own way out... with a compass.

I AM SO GONNA DIE.

Ning, you up for this? :p

And there isn't a bright side to this. Oh god, you love to torture me, don't you?

Over, over, over.

SPM is O-V-E-R! Like TOTALLY!

Today was good. Everything was good. From breaks in between the papers, to finishing the papers anticipating for the chief to say 'you may leave the hall now'; from coffee with the parents to shopping with mom at Queens in school uniform. And the very last minute pestering and going to Queens again for movie.

That was super last minute and it took hell lots of pestering from Kuok Tjun.

T_____T

He was damn bising I can't shop in peace.

T_____T

Anyway, I get to know more Frees people and guess what? They were all not that bad after all. My misconception on them being cocky(which some are super duper ultra mega cocky) was not so true with this bunch la. I had fun, OK?

Two of them decided to flatter me kao kao by saying I'm skinny. *blush;grin* I'm skinny ok! And of course they were all being nice letting me win when I argued with them lar. Hahahahaha. Jia Li dropped me home after the horrible movie and her bf went dota with the gang.

Meh, NO LIFE! Like seriously, some rather NOT club and go Dota.

T________________T

Ok, enough bout that. Beowulf was crap. The creatures scare the shit out of me and I was shocked a couple of times which was very embarrassing. Besides, the ending was awfully pathetic. As expected la the hero died but the final touch was shit.

Oh well. And as if those creatures didn't scare me enough, when we walk out from the cinema, power failure outside pulak.

T_________T

And wah, Adrian so nice lor. When we were at the basement car park to get the car-which was empty, he said 'eh, I heard this place is haunted wan.'

#$%^&*@*!

Can cekik till he die man.

SPM finally over, did I mention? LOL. Yes its over and done with. One whole month for me to slack and enjoy which I had started today. :D

Total damage done today : 2 tops, a pair of shorts and 3 pairs of coloured contacts. :D

And I left 8bucks in my wallet. Hmmm.

Tomorrow getting my hair straighten. Yay!

Ok, tired like crazy de. Should hit the hay soon. No nap at all today, champion lar!

8 more hours.

Till my last paper starts.

And what facts about Biology do I have in mind? Nil.

Perfecto.

I'm sitting for my Biology paper in less than 8 hours and I know nuts about Bio. Way to go, Ryn. Way to go. I'm gonna do so bad, I'll cough blood when I see my results. No joke.

Seriously, why do we have to take Bio lar. Huh? Huh? Huh? I'm not gonna become a doctor or something for I know I would probably be killing souls if I ever become one. So can I just skip tomorrow's paper? Please?


Goddamit, this is so not helping.

(Note to self: Of course this is not. YOU HAVEN'T BEEN STUDYING WHAT. HOW IS THIS GONNA HELP?)

Oh right, I forgot. I slept Friday away, had lots of chitty chatty fun in the library on Saturday and I practically slept half my Sunday away and now, I'm going to get F9 for Biology. Of course I will, F9, Biology and I are really good friends. Like really really good friends since I never passed Bio in my entire form5. Pn Chang is gonna be so very sad. Oh wells.

Mahai, I'm gonna do 1 set of objective paper, speed read through uh, menstruation, go to sleep, wake up, go to school, sit for test, died in paper 2, died again in paper 3 and hello holidays!

Die liao lar. Kill Mendel, kill whoever that came up with Biology. SCREW!!

Biology stinks.

Woke up at 9 to spend hours in the library laughing like jakuuns. Our supposedly STUDY BIOLOGY.

T_________T

We were very random that is, talking about flowery language (read:vulgar) and then about CK underwear that cost RM137.

T_________T


Had kfc for lunch, stuffed ourselves silly with a variety bucket. Wait, I was the only one stuffed lar. Aimy and Jin still have space for other food. And that's because we had an extra large coleslaw. Jin dared me to finish it because my look already super cannot make it. And I always hated it when someone dare me to do stuff, more of teasing me to do it. So I forcefully stuff myself lar. Didn't finish it at last also. Sat pai lar. :p Thinking bout it now makes me wanna hurl. Bleh. I swear I won't touch it for a few weeks.

Ew coleslaw, ewwwwwwww!

Anyway, I still can't believe I didn't study much today. Looks like my hope to get myself a credit for Bio is going down the drain already. Let's just hope I don't fail gila babi. I give up de lar, last paper de also. Its like, IM DONE WITH SPM LAR! Now I just can't wait to do all those stuff I've stated in the previous post.

Manicure, hair, shopping. Mmm, bliss. :)


My parents are out dating lar, how old already. sheesh. I'm home alone, bored and lazy.



Ok, OUT!

One more.

1. BM
2. English
3. History
4. Maths
5. EST
6. Add Maths
7. Physics
8. Chemistry
9. Moral
10. Biology

Ho hum. 1 more freaking subject left. Then I'll be FREE! woop-dee-doo.

I already have list of things to do like for one, SHOPPING! XD That can never be off my list. The last time I shopped was at KL during the raya holidays. WHICH WAS WAY WAY BACK IN SEPTEMBER! I"M SO PROUD OF MYSELF THAT I DIDN'T SHOP FOR 2 WHOLE MONTHS! If you haven't know yet, I shop a lot lar. I shop as if my the greens fall from heaven like that, or that's how my dad claims it.

T_____T

heh. Quite shy also lar but that's in my genes mar and I'm a girl, what to do. XD

Anyway, I'm gonna get my hair straighten this Tuesday. Screw NS lar, I WILL BE STRAIGHTENING MY HAIR. WHEEEEE! XD

Some more right right, my mom is bringing me for manicure session which I don't know when. XD

Some more some more I'm going down to KL for shopping ohmigosh, so so so many things to get lar. I will revamp my wardrobe... I think. xD

The fact that my last paper is on the 26th is getting me all hyped up. Remember 2 Sundays ago, I was at home, nervous like crazy NOT anticipating my first SPM paper but now, IT'S GONNA BE THE LAST ONE. Last one for me, at least, and last one too for all the Science students that are not from chinese school. Aimy, Jin, Karyn, Yuh Ting... harhar, GOT ACCOUNTS SOME MORE! XD

After that, I'm gonna catch up with lots of stuff before I head off for NS lor. Sigh, damn annoying lar. Kacau my happy happy joy joy holiday only. sheeesh. I'm gonna catch up with all my friends, BIG SISTER especially, coop up at home a few days watching series and reading storybook. Ohmigosh, so fun so fun! Some more I can diss people kao kao on my blog then nobody is gonna emo with nobody in school cause I won't be going anymore. HAHAHAHAHA!

I so cannot wait. XD

At the mean time, let me dwell on Biology. Sigh. Before I know it, it'll be over.


Sigh, I just stumble upon a shopping site asos.com. The things are very $$$$$ lar.

T_________T


This post is by far the longest minus the dissing people ones. tee hee.


On the down side, A1 for Add Maths bye bye lar. Paper 2 is a piece of shit lar and I heard that paper leaked yadda yadda. Sigh. A1 no more. The one I'm quite sure of getting N-O M-O-R-E! Sigh. Now left with 2As. SO BLOODY MISERABLE CAN DIE DOT COM. I just realize I'm so dumb. Now they can laugh at my face straight. I need to dig a hole to hide my face when March is around the corner.

T____________T

No, really wan. I can't ace any other subjects anymore. Unlike cough certain people cough, got boyfriend help de so bloody stuck up walk pass me as if I'm made up of thin air like that. Then the other one is sucking up to them as if they are some goddess. tsk tsk.

Or am I just too dumb for them? :(

heehee. :p

SICK-part II.

The war is about to begin and I'm sick like dunno what. Really like dunno what only. Went to the doctor last night; but a different one. The one I normally go to is not open so no choice la. Went to some cheaplak wan. 5 different type of tablets. Fine. Down em all, the next morning feeling wonky. -_- Down em again in the morning after breakfast and konked off till lunch. Woke up, as wonky as ever. -_-

Went to the clicnic after lunch. Got myself 1 cough mixture, (which taste so so so bad) 5 different types of tablets and lozenges. Came home, took the medicine and konked off again. Before I went to sleep right, I felt as though I'm on ecstasy like that. I walk also steam steam wan. Really bo lat wan. My legs were wobbly like jelly! -_-

So yeah, I practically slept through the day. So much so for I'll study Chemistry. Roar. I can still continue sleeping if I want cause my head is still damn heavy. Drug overdose de lar I think.

Oh well, My Sunday 'well' spent ok!

My dad is so so 'nice' he bought Big Mac and ask me if I want some.

-_-

My mom went shopping too. She wanted to bring me along cause she thought vitamin S (vitamin shopping lar) is gonna help me but I can't even crawl out from bed how to go! But she was nice to get me cream puffs unlike my dad lor. Big Mac I cannot eat lar!!!!!

My parents a bit off also wan right? Sigh.


I shall shower and start studying something lar.

SICK.

Pray that my flu, fever, cough, head and body aches go away before Tuesday. I'm feeling so wonky now.

Blehhhhh.

NS doesn't stink.

For Ning and I would be in the same camp!!!! xD



Tahniah, anda telah terpilih untuk mengikuti Program Latihan Khidmat Negara Siri 5/2008.

No KP

90081307****

Nama	KARYN KHOR WEI-LIN

Nama Kem

KEM SYRUZ, BUKIT MERTAJAM

Alamat Kem

NO 14020 MACHANG BUBUK - 14000 BUKIT MERTAJAM PULAU PINANG

Pusat Berkumpul

PENANG INTERNATIONAL SPORT ARENA, BUKIT JAMBUL (PISA)

Kumpulan

1

Tarikh Daftar

30/12/2007

Masa Daftar

9.30 Pagi

Give it up.

"shit happens, life goes on."


This is not the first time, and I bet I can deal with it just fine. :)

6 to go.

Sejarah died.

BM half-died.

English is a-okay but Cambridge level cannot get A de. Language super not flowery enough. Sigh.

Maths is still the best but... SO MANY SILLY MISTAKES! T______T *pukes blood die* I so can kill myself.


Oh well, that's all so far. Give me a week more, Imma diss people kao kao! :)

By the way, the people in Starbucks are super nice ok! My parents went for coffee just now and my mom bump into Eric (asst manager), my mom told him 'my daughter was the one that lost her iPod here'. He said, 'should tell me earlier, everything would be on me!'

har har. Not bad, eh?

Sejarah not my thing.

It never was and never will be!

Conclusion : I'm giving up and hitting the bed.

I know I know, its SPM, the last time you'll be sitting for this Sejarah exam yadda yadda but harlooo, I'm sick(flu, cough and duckie voice ;p) so let me be! I give up, my problem lar. As long as there is no F9, I'd so damn contented. har har!

Anyway, let's just hope English doesn't kill me. I'm having a bad feeling about it. Hmm.


1 down, 9 to go! Good luck, horses!

Heck.

SPM IS TOMORROW WOI!!!
OMG, CAN DIE PANICKING ALREADY!


People, I need luck!!!!!!!!! :S

Dear iPod...

disclaimer : contain lots of profanities below. If you are holy, please don't read this post because I don't wanna contaminate you holy people la. I will feel very guilty wan, so be good, listen to me k? Cheerios.

I LOST IT! I left it at Starbucks yesterday and when I realized that the iPod wasn't with me I was already in the library. To console myself, I told myself that i MIGHT left it at home, but the fact that I didn't open that bag when I was home... Hmmm. A bit worried but I made it through in the library studying and having fun. When clock strike 5.45pm, we decided to leave the library. And since ames was fetching me home, I asked her to drop by e-gate so that we can ASK if the staff in Starbucks saw my iPod and have dinner before dropping me home.

Starbucks it was after ames get her car wash. And the conversation pissed me off so damn bad. eff.
(ryn, ames, the staff in starbucks)

hi.
uh hi, did you guys saw an iPod nano...
yeah, it has a black cover wan.
oh yeah, we did but.. a lady in her mid twenties wearing specs claim it this morning.
*WTF* uh, you sure?
yeah, the one that size about this big, has a black leather cover and its white right?
um, yeah. its silver actually but never mind that. you mean someone took it already?
*rushes off to start calling* yeah. i'm sorry we can't do anything at the moment but can you leave your name and number for us?
oh ok. :(
*scribble down phone no and name on the piece of paper*
*look at ames -_-*
heard a bit of gossiping among the staff and we left.

OMGWTF LA!

DON'T LET ME FIND OUT WHO SHE IS OK! I JUST HOPE THAT MY IPOD WILL CRASH ON HER OR MAYBE SHE WILL DIE IN A HORRIBLE CAR CRASH. WTF LA NO MONEY DON'T ACT LIKE DAMN RICH CLAIM OTHER PEOPLE'S STUFF AND ACT LIKE IT BELONGS TO YOU LOR. BEEEETCH. I GOT THAT IPOD FOR LESS THAN 4 MONTHS ONLY LA AND ITS MY EFFING NIRTHDAY PRESENT LA! I DAMN SIM THIA NOW OK AFTER THE DAMN FEELING FINALLY SETS IN. MCH.

UGHHHHHHHHHHH. GOD, WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME? SPM IN 3 DAYS THEN I LOST MY PRECIOUS? YOU SERIOUSLY THINK I WILL SUAK SUAK KI WITH EVERYTHING WAN IS IT? WHY ARE YOU PLAYING ALL THIS PRANKS ON ME? ONE AFTER ANOTHER, DAMN FUN MEH? ITS TORMENTING LEH.

UGHHH. PISSED OFF.

So yeah, I've lost it. :(

Unproductive.

Har har. It was, wasn't it ames? Thanks to me, half the time distracting you from your Sejarah. Sorry la, the thought that the 4 of us going down to KL is just so happifying! The thought that we would do so much shopping and eating and gossiping. Bliss ok? Now its pre-SPM stress. Next up, post-SPM fun! xD

Before fun begins, lemme tell you something. I'M SO DEAD FOR SPM. Like literally. Maybe except Maths and Add Maths. The rest all kantoi. Sejarah is first to begin with. Ya allah please help me I don't wanna get a 9. :( If not damn memalukan la since Karyn memorized everything about Sejarah already. Shy wan ok!!!

Canceled Add Maths tuition today, was a tad lazy. Now thats a vary rare sight. Will probably have a hardcore session next week.

-

I've been doing big girls stuff-studying in the library. That's the thing I thought I need not experience, yet I'm doing it now. Going there in the morning, study, joke around, study, stone a bit and then its dinner time with a bunch of people. Never have I thought it was my time. Now what? 3 days? How time flies. 11 years of schooling and in another 2 weeks time, I'll be free.

Then its KL!!!! xD Aimy just had to get me all excited. Grrhh. I'm coming for you my dear Lacoste shoe and Lesport sac bag. Wheeeeeeeee.



the tall one and the small one. the car, har har har!

A week.

How come I have this feeling that my patience is running out?? If so, my mom has gotta be careful. Throwing her tantrums at me a week before SPM is OMFG NOOOOOOOOOOO!

Let's just hope I don't blow up, yeah? If I do, she is so dead, won't she?

Why make me cry?

Ning's post, Ngiap Li's letter, Janice's poem.

Why? Why am I blessed with people like you girls?


If there were reasons why I would wanna go back to high school, it would be for you three. The times we spent together, the things we would do. The smarty pants Janke, The goody-two-shoes Ngiap Li and The evil and mean bitch Ning that has a soft spot for me. :)

Ning is the one that let me manja my way to get things done. She is the only one that can stand my I-want-this-and-I-want-this-now attitude. She force fed me with char koay teow huan cheo cheh and I forced her to be with Jon. She is the lousiest money controller for she would let me spend more that I intend to yet she is still the best person to go shopping with.

Ngiap Li, the one that i sought comfort from, the one that is so frank her words hits hard on me. She's there to give me my reality check. She is there to give and listen. She is the best tuition companion I could ever ask for.

Janke, the one that I would walk to 5 Bestari for newspapers in the morning, the one that would read the newspaper with me from the back to the front in junior lab B-our form4 classroom, the one that would always tease me and tell me she hates me yet she is probably the one that loves me most.

The threes that I cherish, the threes that I would do anything to have them in the same class with me again, the threes that I have learned to love through the years, the threes that love's so true.

The trios, they will always have a place in my heart. I love you girls. :) There's so much about you girls for me to write about, but you know words are not enough to describe our blissful friendship.


I'll miss the days as years go by,
I'll miss the times we used to cry,
And the laughters,
That brings tears to my eyes.

I'll miss the fun we had in spring,
I'll miss the colours that autumn brings,
I'll miss the times we used to sing,
I'll miss the love that friends can bring,

The time to part will come very soon,
But lets let our friendship go beyond the moon,
You gave me something that's so true,
No doubt about it, I'll miss you.
(Jan's)

We laughed until we had to cry,
We hugged until our final goodbye,
We were the best we'll ever be,
Call my number, you'll always have me.
(Ning's)

As for Ngiap's, its for me and only me to know. ;)

It was MY turn.

So I cried. Nothing big.

But it's funny how I thought the teachers that I'm close to would make me cry and the teachers that I couldn't care less wouldn't. I was wrong. I am so sure I was wrong. Of all people, Pn Salmah and Pn Hafizah made me cry. Harro??? The two's subjects that I HATE! One after another. The two's lessons, that's when I would start my day-dreaming sessions! Harro? Them? But it was all good except for uh, Pn Su force-hugged me. Maybe because I was crying that's why she hugged me to comfort me mar. (keep consoling yourself that, Ryn. keep consoling yourself) I hugged most the teachers, Pn Gan, Pn Chang, Pn Salmah, (DUH! she was the first one!) Pn Sarimah, Pn Hafizah,(that made me cry again when I was about to stop) Ms Ho, Ms Chow and Pn Tan etc. Holy smokes, Pn Tan cried ok. :( I mean Pn Tan is the very cool one, you'll feel very distant with her that type of person cried. Heh.

We took lots of pictures, rushing each other to sign the year book etc. From the assembly area to our classroom, to the canteen and the staff room. :)

The girl that everyone loves, Pn Tan told me when I ask her for a picture. I was flabbergasted. Me? The one that hardly pays any attention in class, the one that would eat candy, chocolates and any sort of tidbits in class (except Pn Salmah's cause she caught me once last year), the one that is always sleepy and occasionally sleeps in class, the one that can be so very annoying... ME? :( I didn't know she likes me that much, I thought well, I thought I was just the girl that she would call for when she needed her mic or whenever she needed someone's to help carry the long books down to the staff room.

She definitely likes me more than I thought. And Pn Gan let me sit on her lap whilst taking pictures. I remember when I was in Kindy, Ms Yeap let me sit on her lap too during story-telling sessions. Everytime! Good ol' times. ;)

Now this day has finally arrived. The day we bid our goodbyes to the teachers. (No goodbye to friends la ok, how can! I'll keep in contact with them, promise!! *offers pinky finger*) The day I never dared to imagine, the day when I only longed for when shit happens. High school... What can I say about high school? Hmmm. I look forward to stepping my feet into high school when I was in primary, then when I'm in high school, I hated it so much I want to get out from it. And now that I'm out from it (24 more day la till I AM really out from it) I think I'm starting to miss it. I have to admit, I have a lot of fond memories in CGL. :) There are some shitty ones too but there must be, no? If not, how can high school be high school? ;) It is through those memories/experiences that makes me who I am today, no?

Yeah, getting very emo. Let's not get into the FRIENDS part, YET! They make me emo, so very very emo. Janke's poem, Ngiap Li's letter. *tear tear* I might start tonight though. And post up lots and lots of pictures too. I have great friends, no joke!

All ends well. Jia Li dropped me home after dropping Gla at her Gramma's, Zati and gang off to McDizzies, fetching Kuok Tjun and Adrian from some kopitiam and then drop Adrian home. Kuok Tjun damn cheeky can die dot com when I thought he was the super quite can die dot com type. Sheesh, should stop judging la, Ryn! Ah, cuteness. *shifty eyes*



Till I step into school next next Monday.

Get it off my chest.

Eh? Not so hard hor. I was so brave. :D

Alas, screw this. SPM more important. Besides, I'm not suppose to create problems like certain coughpeoplecough. :)

2 more days till I officially graduate from HIGH SCHOOL. 2 more days till I finally step out of this almost run down building. 2 more days, till I let my tears well up in my eyes and trickle down my face. :( Know pun la my waterworks work damn efficiently wan. Today was my last day to suffer from that smelly longkang beside the senior labs and tomorrow, last Physics lesson with Ms Chow. Wait, why am I getting so emo here? Hmmm. Sigh, how time flies. I'm already 17 but unfortunately, I am trapped in a body of a 12 year old. Double sigh.

So, is anyone up for studying with me next week? *puppy eyes*


Got back my blue colour book. I gained 5kg since std 6. Not bad eh? And my height, very saddening, 10cm in 5 years. :( At least I'm 158cm now. (with shoes)

Damn shy kao kao.

What is this la Yang Wei Jin. As if I haven't bother your mom enough. You want her to teach me Maths now.

-___-

I don't even know whether I'm suppose to thank you or to hate you lorrrrrrrrrrr. You tell me what to do la. Definitely no love ok!!!!!!

No love.

No love.


NO LOVE LA, you hear?

*shy shy shy shy shy shy shy shy shy*

Maths also need private tuition, I'm not like coughyouknowwhocough ok. DIE.

Lame-O.

You : I'm downloading the whole season of Scrubs 1 to 6. We'll watch after SPM. Now how much do you love me?
Me : From 1 to 6. =D
You : ...


I think I have just brought lameness to a whole new level. Sheesh. I'm supposed to be studying. =S

好事不出门，恶事行千里.

'好事不出门，恶事行千里' is equivalent to 'the good deed does not leave the gate, wicked matter goes great distance'.

Champion!

Terror ok, I still can remember CHINESE proverb but the translation is a bit off though. You still get what I'm trying to say, don't you? :)

I'm trying to relate the title to my post but it seems like it should be vice-verse as in '恶事不出门，好事行千里'. After all, being in a relationship is something good. No? *smug*

Coughs. So here goes. I'm just being the usual kaypo-self so don't be offended, yes?


So I heard about the hooking up. Aww, so shweet. Holding hands, skipping youth to study together, buying each other little gifts and bringing em' everywhere, a holy Christian being with a Buddhist because of true love and supposedly being together after SPM but brought forward to being together now and all that mumbo jumbo.

Hypocrite indeed, which suits you. It takes one to be in another one's shoe to understand them. I heard you told someone before (well something alike la), so should I be in your shoes to understand you? Should I understand why all of a sudden you decided to put God second? Should I understand you why you would stone all day during lessons? Should I understand you, dimwit?

All that bullocks, 'afraid of falling into temptations'. You once said temptations are everywhere for a young/underage couple. If you can't control your temptations then you might regret what you did. HAR HAR! You can't even control your own, now don't preach! Don't do it EVER again. Don't say stuff like 'he is a strong Christian, even if you like him, you wouldn't stand a chance.' or somethings that condemns other's religion.

What's getting me all pissed here is not because you have a boyfriend, don't be silly to think that way. I'm not so free la. Boyfriends are useless anyway. LOL. Now thats being sour. LOL. My point is, I'm mad because you preach others and act all that holey and you don't follow what you preach. It's like a pastor asking his followers to not do drugs and he himself is doing it.


GEDDIT???????

If any of us bombard you with questions, don't answer cliche stuff like how am I suppose to control my feelings and all that jazz. But wait, you won't be seeing me so soon so you won't get it from me YET. Boy, you're lucky.

And for once, I think I(WE) cared to much. Yeah, realized its in past tense right? Cause we no longer do now. 'Prevention is better than cure', we told you a gazillion times but if you don't listen, there's nothing we can do.

You and all your nonsense shall end here. After all, this post is to spice things up on my blog. It's so dull and at least I have substance here. Har!

-

2 freaking adults decided to cut my queue today. WHAT WRONG WITH LINING UP WEI! YORRRRR. SUPER POTONG STEAM OK. (even though I dunno what's potong steam, I just think it sounds suitable here so yeah) POTONG STEAM GILER! grrrrrrrhhhhhhhh.

26 more days.

OH.MY.GODDDDDDDDDDDD.

Freaking 26 more days only ok what am i doing here. -.-

Nothing to blog about la actually. Just setting a reminder to self (kononnya la, I'm here wasting time if not what. xD) and all the fifth formers that read my blog. harhar! 26 more days only. :D 26 26 26 26. Eh, why 26 la. Dammit.

My life is so not happening at all. All I do is eat, sleep, shit. I tried nerding but it doesn't last long which is quite saddening since its only 26 more days left. I'm quite scared already(then what am I doing here why do I contradict myself wan. sheesh.) cause most of my friends are stuffing their faces into the books which I'm not doing.

Can so fail SPM already. Anyone wants to bring me out to study? Cause at home lots and lots of temptation la. Anyone??? *puppy eyes*

I just can't wait to go to KL after SPM. That time would be the sales season which means SHOPPING! wheeee. Lots and lots of shopping. Sweet. The pair of shoes from Lacoste, the bag from lesportsac, clothes for my iPod and me too. MmmmMmmmm. And visiting the new mall. After all that would be getting my car license. har har! Wait, have to pass my undang first. xD Then get myself a car, second hand will do la. Then its hanging out with friends till NS. Boo hoo.

Ok, needa stop. Have to study. Too early to dream de. xD


Mummy and Michelle darling's birthday falls on the 26 too. :D

Mmmm...

I have a secret reader. :D Wheee. Jin has one too. I'm flattered. :D I bet Jin is too, Jin is probably delighted since he thinks SHE IS OH SO B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L AND SMART.

Yeah, beautiful..... NOT! My butt is beautiful-er la double-u-tee-eff.

Whats the reason for being so quiet in class? Act innocent ya? I thought so too. Or probably afraid that Ngiap Li and I will start bombarding you again. Either one doesn't matter. :) I SO ROCK! I mean having someone to be afraid of you is kinda cool don't you think? Because to me, it has always been the other way round-me afraid of others.
I thought my blog is so boringly pink that no one will bother reading about the content but hey, I'm wrong. :)

Oowiee, all the more reasons for me to diss people. Double yay!


EYE CANDY.











Joo Ji Hoon. *squeals*

:D :D :D

Sleep early.

But... HOW?

Dapho told me 'I look like I didn't sleep last night' during Moral just now.

Aduh, are those eye bags really that bad. :S
Ok can cry already.
........ REALLY BAD EYE BAGS. *cries*
How to get it off ah?


I failed subjects that I predicted I will fail.
I think I can be a fortune teller, how's that? :D


Dapho, I watched the hair flip video clip. harhar! Happiness is just a hair-flip away!!! Now wouldn't it be nice if you, Ning and I are in the same class. I bet we rock! And we will annoy every single soul in class. :D



10.10 is a very familiar date. anyone's birthday ah?

Disappointed.

A little.

Fine, I lied.

Maybe a lot.

Ok fine, I lied again.

So I am VERY DISAPPOINTED.


There.

Reason- Add Maths paper 2. Screwed up piece of shit.

I did worse than mid term. Triple the amount of time and effort put into it, I did worse than mid term. Sometimes, I can't believe I'm this smart. The disappointment, the dissatisfaction, the bitterness, the(put in whatever adjectives similar) is getting me. Before this feeling sunk in, nobody is gonna tell me I did fairly well before I snap.

I was quite contented when I got back my paper 1 marks. Its like what Aimy said, your effort will be paid off. Was about to believe in it and ta-daaa, my paper 2 decided to kill me just like how my BM paper 1 did.

I AM SO ANGRY WITH MYSELF OK! Its not like I've never experience that before, but just this time, its different.

Some people might say for my standard, its good enough. I probably got the highest in class. In fact, I probably beat a couple of people from the second class. SO WHAT? Its doesn't matter to me if I beat people smarter than me or anything similar to it. I don't show off my marks unlike well, certain people. I don't. I just want to meet that damned standard that I've set because I know I can. Yeah, I can. I can already imagine some people smirking and that thought is not pleasant.

Effort gone to waste. Just like how some people spent their days doing Add Maths and Maths and nothing comes out of it.

Now I can be like them, officially.

And the fact that there isn't any jolly happy things to cheer me up, this sucks.

I think I'm gonna start engrossing myself into a good book-to numb this bitterness till reality check tomorrow. And maybe I should take up lessons on the hair flip thingy from Dapho, it might come in handy. ;)

Till then.

Determination.

Lost it, totally.


Someone just kill me before I sit for my SPM. I'm so not gonna make it.

Currently going to read if lack of determination: A Thousand Splendid Suns. Yeah, the book I've been dying to read and Kim decided to lend it to me.
Currently watching: Goong episode 11.

I will fail SPM la if this continues. :(

I am cute.

DISCLAIMER: SUPER PERASAN POST AHEAD! IF YOU CAN'T STAND MY PERASAN-NESS, KINDLY GO TO THE UPPER RIGHT HAND CORNER AND CLICK ON THE "X" BUTTON. THANK YOU.

:)


I'm cute, no? Looking at this picture, no wonder I pass for a twelve year old. I didn't know not layan-ing for cam-whoring pictures can turn out so good. *beams*

And another, what suppose to be group study...


Trying out my phone's camera which SUCKS big time. :S Ah well, I still look cute and that's what matters most :D

Anyway, new cam-whore partner found! :) :) :)



xD i'm still so much cuter. And for once, he is so damn layan. *pats*


ps- please bear with the bad quality picture.

Uber randomness.

I'm hungry and I don't have food to eat.
I'm growing fat stuffing myself with cheese cubes at 2 am. (but I'm still hungry.)
I hate Add Math because I get stuck after doing question 8. Looks like I'm deteriorating like crazy. :( I just can't do LOG dammit I dunno what's wrong. I JUST GET STUCK at it/after it!
I want a boyfriend, NOW!
I'm watching/addicted to Goong/Princess Hours/The Imperial Household when I'm suppose to be studying.
I'm hating both my printers because they don't let me print stuff.
I like Yuk better than Shin. Hyori is pretty but so damn evil.
I'm failing Chemistry and Biology and Moral.
I'm bored.
I want food.
I'm bored.
I want food.
I need more brain cells.
I need to study.
I need to finish 25 questions of Add Maths but I dunno how to do. *wailssssss*


I think I'm bringing procrastination to a whole new level.

Smug.

Yay, Me, Ngiap Li, Kim and Rach passed Physics. LOL. So I passed Physics, not all that great but at least I beat her! harhar! *smug* So much so for you indirectly saying I'm dumb. dum de dum. :D


Flaunt all you want about him to us, tell us how great/smart/hardworking he is, put him before God, your mom and your friends. Go ahead, I could care less. I (we actually) gave you a piece of my mind and you won't budge. Now what? Lemme tell you what, now I shall just wait for you to fall flat and laugh at your face thats what. Call me a sour grape if you ever come across this blog post but let's just hope you don't ever regret your choice and come back to us.

WE, did this for your own good. Why would we bother if you are not a friend? Why would we lecture you during our free time when what we all could do was some revision, yak about practically anything under the sun while letting you rot at your corner? We could have done that. Its easy peasy lemon squeezy, no? Have you ever wondered why?

We would love to shake some sense into your head but what do we get? You, contradicting yourself. Thats what we got. You happy now, no? If this happiness is gonna last then congratulations. If not... I dare not imagine what you would turn out. As if last year being all emo is not enough. You are so hopeless now all I want to do is to give you a tight slap and a reality check.

You, ungrateful. God and your mom aside, you rather by pass a living proof-Me. I told you the last thing you want to do is to regret your choice but you won't listen, would you? I didn't listen to Ning last year and that was something I quite regret after, thinking he was so great he was the best damned thing that I came across in life yadi yada and think we could last forever and all those shit. Yeah, forever. Bullocks.

Now, you're just gonna repeat history. And me? I shall just wait and see.

On a completely different note, McDIZZIES HAVE PONIESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!! WHOOOOOOO!!! I'M GETTING A COMPLETE SET IF THAT MEANS I'M EATING McD EVERY WEEK!!! ponies ponies ponies. =D

I got to know it from my mom and ting ting yang tersayang message me this afternoon when I was sleeping asking if I want the pony. awwwww!! i loveeeee you okkkkk!!! ;D



Add-ons : I just had the best damned conversation with the best girlfriend ever! :) it has been damn long. *hug and kiss and love and more hugs and more kisses and more love* ;D

Suppose to be studying.

harhar! Ngiap Li is so gonna keeeeeeeeeel me. :( I mean I did try, but I got distracted by some thoughts so here I am now. Sigh.


I'm bored of Facebook already surprisingly. Albeit it being 1000 times cooler than Friendster with all the applications. The only thing that I like is My Room application. ;) Its like the Sims basically, just a lot more easier and uh, less stuff. heh. Currently, I have no coins to get more stuff. BOO!

I'm even bored with the super duper ultra mega giga adorable bunny game. Sigh.

Oh well, there's always retail therapy. The only thing that has never failed me. :D


Eh, ass-pee-am is like so near and why I'm talking about Facebook and shopping. Great karyn, G-R-E-A-T!

-_-

Can't wait till next Saturday! :D Then I can wear my new clothes out. harhar!

I NEED TO STUDY! KARYN NEEDS TO STUDY! I'm lazy wazy hazy crazy. gah.

Oh, and all the best to PMR takers. harharhar! Monday start de. xD

Reminder to self: Ok, I'm being mean here. >.< My turn would be next la laugh some more.

Succumbed to IT.

IT, again.

I just told Ngiap Li in tuition that I would stay away from IT until SPM is over. "A bit here and there is ok but not the big bang ones" was her reply.

I've spoke too soon. I've just spent a whooping 600 in Queens. *cringe* Not that this never happened before but but... I thought... I am already... insaf wut. :p

Anyway, THIS IS THE LAST TIME OK! I PROMISE!!!! I would stay at home, or go Starbucks or the library to study my butt off and NO SHOPPING! Not entirely NO shopping, just NO to the big bang ones. I know I can. ;) Well, at least I hope I can.


And guess what, I've found my love at Queens. :D GAP KIDS it is! No sheet, I fit wan ok! Not surprising lah, I know but the price of the clothes there are rather reasonable compared to GAP adults. ;) Not just that, the sizes too. heh.

Was shocked to bump into Carmen in Esprit. She's working there. heh. She is damn good a worker la I must say, kept on pestering me to get more stuff and of course la, the lousy me got succumbed to it. Tell me when I'm not. -_- And Nadia too working in FOS but I didn't get anything there. harhar!

I added 2 bags to my collection, (I know I know, Gladys will say 'you can go and open a shop to sell bads ade lah!', and Kim, 'bags again ah?' I know my friends too damn well.) 6 tops and a pair of skinny jeans. :D And the jeans, I need to alter. :(

OK la, I don't wanna bore you guys with shopping la. To those that know me quite well will think 'there she goes again' and those that don't, they'll prolly think I'm a brat showing off. pffft.

I was so bertekad to study after getting the things that I wanted but then now, I feel so sleepy. Oh well, I guess I shall stone a while and then get started. :)

Yawns?

At this time, I have no one to Facebook with. :( And I think the I'm starting to get bored of Facebook. Hmmm.
At this time of the day, I mean night, I'm supposed to be snuggling deeper into my cover and not typing this. -_-


15 minutes ago, I beeped Kim to remind her to get me my Sausage McMuffin for breakfast.

40-God-knows-how many more days till SPM, I've lost count. Sigh. I could be studying now.

Ah, someone entertain me! No blogs to read, no people to play facebook with, no new songs to listen to, SIEN x10000000!

Oh and very lazy to study too.

Aduh. I'm bored. I'm gonna go try and sleep. Toodles!

Just when I thought...

My sleeping time is back to normal ie. 1 am, I was wrong.

For the past 3 weeks my sleeping time KO-ed and I thought it would be back to normal again since I slept exceptionally early last night but NO. I'm wide awake now, at 1 am.

-_-

And I slept early because I was sick la die die die die. When can I get back to my usual sleeping at 12 am laaaaaaa. I'm still sick now though, slightly better la but still fail big time. Sigh.


Oh, before I forgot. I need to remember how low in History I've got in history. Trust me, NO ONE can beat me. This time I'm really champion in failing History.

-_-

I need to remember this and tell my kids next time not to follow my footsteps if I ever have kids.

-_-

Maybe not a shocker to most but I'm shocked banyak banyak because I actually got full marks for Earth as a Sphere instead of drawing planes. OH GOODNESS. It's a good thing la but why liddat? makes people think I'm weird only.

-_-

And another shocker, 71 for Maths. Not very satisfying but good enough for leaving 14 marks to waste and still get an average lo. I mean leaving 3 questions-circles, 3D and drawing straight line on graph blank and did not do revision(ok, so I did. 1 night before and thats 2 hours max?) some more. What can I expect right? So yeah.

Now waiting to get Add Maths marks is scaring the hell outta me. Pressure la ok. I don't quite dare to expect much but I have to la after 13 hours of hardcore ADD MATH ONLY. Scared la wei. Partly because my BM was a big ass disappointment. Sigh. I was expecting a B la dammit. Thanks to me being prone-at-direct-translation-from-English to BM in essay writings. Sigh.

Ok, BM aside I'm still damn scared if I don't get a B for Add Math ok. :(

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Movie ticks. I think I look cute*shy* here minus the messy hair. I want my long and flat hair back. Boo! :(

Random.

Skipping school tomorrow because,
1) I don't wanna get my History marks.
2) I'm obviously lazy.
3) I'm down with a flu. (My nose is as red as Rudolph's and I bet it's gonna start peeling soon, which hurts. :S Kleenex have been a good friend though.)

Anyway, something random here.

DISCLAMINER : I"M REFERRING TO NO ONE IN PARTICULAR HERE. JUST RAMBLINGS.


Have you thought of the reasons why do people betray and stuff? I never really come to a conclusion for that. In fact, it wasn't such big a deal to me. So yeah, why do people do that anyway? Why do they do it and when people tell them off, they can just act as if nothing happened? Won't they feel a tinge of guilt? For talking bad about people etc. Can they find happiness by doing things as such? What would they get in return? Attention? Maybe. I'll just settle for that for the moment.

Hmmm.

And you know what type of people I hate most? I hate those people that would never listen. They are so irritatingly annoying. Grrhh. All they do is talk about themselves and more about themselves. They'll just shut you up whenever you have something to say, be it something they like to hear or not, they just show no interest. How annoying is that? Especially when it comes to advising people as such-CAN DIE. You'll just waste time, waste energy and saliva.

Basically, I hate(wait, hate is a strong word. fine, despise) them. I don't know what have gotten into me but yeah. Just ramblings. Probably MS too.


Oh, marks are like SHEEEEEEEEEEEEEET. :( My BM essay killed me. On.The.Spot.


On a happy note, chicken lady is backkkkkkk!!!! Wheeeee! Now all we need is dinner and catching up. ;D